A girl who claims to not exist on her blog (https://thegirlwhodoesntexist.com/the-girl-who-doesnt-exist-3/) inspired me to write something about existence on here.
Just like her, I never existed before and won’t exist after I am gone in a few years or decades. For now, this existence deceives me in many ways to think that I “do” exist when in universal clock my existence is hardly nano part of a single moment.
In our childhood, we have no clue about anything except playing. In our teen years, we start doubting everything since everyone is behaving strangely to us. In our middle age, we kind of have figured out everything but its not that interesting. And by the moment we reach old age, this existence physically starts to fall apart in waiting rooms of medical clinics.
In this tiny yet farce existence, all of us try to impact someone or the whole world. Some lose themselves in this world to a point as if they themselves never existed. I have personally seen such sacrificial people for their families, neighborhood or countries doing that. Selflessness has been promoted as a virtue by some to confuse the heck out of us. And doing anything healthy for your own self is labeled as selfish.
Your truths are others’ lies and vice versa. Your definition of things become alien words for those who wear glasses of different color, most prominently negative dark. And when all of this keeps on spinning in your brain, you end up like this girl who thinks she does not exist.